"I believe it because it is absurd." I read the famous aphorism (falsely?) attributed to Tertullian somewhere as an undergraduate, and it stuck with me. (Notice that what I am about to say follows equally well from the authentic quotation in De carne Christi 5.4: credibile prorsus est, quia ineptum est, i.e. "it is believable precisely because it is absurd" -- the point is that religion appears nonsensical.) As an LDS missionary in northern Spain, I even cited the aphorism on occasion when explaining myself to nonmembers (and potential converts, rare as that species was). My reasoning, which I still find apt today, was more or less as follows.
You don't belong to a church because its doctrine makes perfect sense. (No doctrine
does.) You don't belong to a church because it never makes a mistake.
(They all do.) You belong to a church because God put you there (in
that family, in that community, in the nexus of events that got you
through the door and into the baptismal font, or some other initiatory
ritual).
Someone outside your group looks at what you do and
says, "Dude, that is absurd." If you are honest, and empathetic, you
see his point and acknowledge it: "Yes, that absurdity you see, that is
real, and that is precisely what keeps me coming back. I am a part of
this community, which means that I embrace the absurdity." A case in point. What other
people find obnoxious in me (as a person and a potential lifelong
companion), my wife finds "cute" (or so she says -- that doesn't mean
that she never pushes back or that she is an utterly passive doormat,
the way some people seem to think it should: it's just the way things
are!).
I certainly don't think we should ignore data that
overthrow our ideas (no matter how we may feel about said ideas). As a Mormon missionary, I did not invite people to ignore data. I was all about trying to
get them to look at it; for me, that was Mormonism (further light and
knowledge, continuing revelation, an unfolding of exciting new ideas
with no end in sight). Then, at some point, I realized that the
institutional church was not behind me. Slowly, I became aware that
this was not all: the church was actually opposed to me, was fighting
against the gospel (as I understood it) -- actively denying the Holy
Ghost (to use its own language) -- and I was pretty devastated. Today, I
am mostly recovered. I think of myself as an atheist, or a Buddhist,
or an uncorrelated Mormon, depending on the weather and the social
circle I am moving in. I have not found absolute truth. I do not have
"the" answer, but I have found much better questions, and my faith
journey continues -- largely without the LDS church, since it appears to have no use
for what I see as the purpose of life (asking tough questions, and respecting the fact that we don't all have to meet them with the same answers, that the game of life has more than one solution).
People come to religion, in
my view, pretty much the same way that they come to music or cuisine.
You listen, you taste, and something in the experience grabs you. You
have to hear more, to get that flavor again. You have to play. You have
to dance. You have to try that recipe again and again, and get it
right yourself. You don't come to jazz or Italian because they are
rationally superior to folk or Mexican. You might try to convince
yourself that you do, after the fact, when somebody presses you for
reasons why you suddenly went cuckoo (from their perspective) -- but
such rationalization is specious (as rationalization often is when it is
invoked to explain complex historical decisions involving more
variables than we can separate easily). You come to jazz, and you don't
know why: you just have to. Tertullian's statement captures that.
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